Message to a friend...

everything here feels fake, like a hood pulled over my eyes to keep me from the truth. its empty and meaningless but sweet enough to distract me from the goal. but the truth is undeniable. we were made for more than just soil and blood. we were made for the end, where all things come to find themselves, where all of time is caught together, carried in the whispers of the night. it is where magic and science are one in the same where love and truth are synonymous. it is not an afer-life but ALL of life. its here with us now, but we are not always with it. it calls to us, the single universal truth that binds us all together. its delicate and easily lost but always present to those who seek it. who truly truly seek it. we were all born with a void- a purpose to find something we cannot place. an ineffable desire, what seems an eternal hunger. i miss the chase. i miss the swelling of a passion so deep that it seems i could fall into it forever. maybe i really am crazy and the warm darkness that cradles me is a fabrication made to answer my lonely cries and my never ending questions- a shelter from a society i feel does not welcome me. am i to remain in this limbo forever? caught between two worlds where i am not sure i belong or if the other truly exists? i feel if i go to deep ill never come back. i can already feel myself fading away. and being alone and isolated doesnt help. but is it a good thing? this is what i wanted. but is it? i miss you.