so this one is really gay...

i got the idea for this while riding on the subway with an empty coffee cup in hand. someone next to me laughed and i could feel their laughter inside my coffee cup. i thought this was a great metaphor so i decided to build a poem-like thing around it. beware it is extremely disjointed and awkward in lots of places.


i can feel the vibration of your laughter in my empty coffee cup.
a tickle in my palm
a melancholy whisper in my ear
in your absence there has settled a thick mist around my eyes
but mine has nearly nicked any difference in your existence.

i kept our bottle on the shelf
and i find yours in the trash.
is it silly to think these things are special?

the sweetness on your tongue has turned a bitter black
it stings and i want so much to let it go
but the smell of my childhood clings to your clothes
it wont let go
why wont it just let me go?

i know ive changed as well
i cant force all the blame on you
the clouds in my eyes cant seem to quit raining.
im starting to wonder
am i the only one who thinks that tragedy is charming?

stupid poem i wrote

if there is beauty left in this world
then i can only think of one place.
so im in search of never land, never land
i used to fly like you dear peter pan
how i wish i could see the world like you do peter pan.
but where did all the magic go?
happy thoughts dont come around here so often.

im still waiting for you christopher robin
under this willow tree
ive sat here so long i wonder if i am even real
since uve left nothing feels real
where have u gone?
did u forget about your little yellow bear?
did you know id wait forever?

oh alice little alice
you asked too many questions
why did u ever go down that rabbit hole?
did u think it would last forever?
wonderland was only in your head you know...
it was only in your head...

i know i know
i chased that rabbit too
it lead me to a wonderland, a wonderland
but now im in a nowhere land, a nowhere land
making all my nowhere plans
for nobody.

HORSE the Band

I think we're both suffering from the same crushing metaphysical crisis

"Dilation of chronal aperture in 3 2 1"
activate
initiate
instruments set to yesterday
at the speed light
across empty plains of time
on a ship of jewels and gold
all of time unfolds
A SEVEN CLICK BLIP
FOR A FIFTEEN EON TRIP
CRAFTING DEJA VU
EVENT HORIZON BOOM
DAYS RESCIND AND LAPSE
BIRTH AFTER DEATH
TOMORROW IS THE PAST
EVENT HORIZON BOOM
CITIES SHRINK AND FADE
INTO THE ICE AGE
DINOSAURS NOW NEW
EVENT HORIZON BOOM
TIME IS BROKEN!!!!!!!!
time after time
time after time
time after time
time
all these machines that dream
make me want to scream
there's no bears or wild things
the future's not what it seems
causality denied
all of time is now mine
the crisis we both share
is you are me when i was there
time after time
it's almost time
time to say goodbye
at the end of time